Monday, August 13, 2012

Just Give Up Already

  Hannah's school had valentine surveys you could take and would match you up with "YOUR ONE TRUE LOVE!" Some people, like Clay, took the surveys as a joke, but Hannah described Clay in her survey. A boy named Marcus Cooley,Hannah's sixth reason, had gotten her on his list for valentines. He asks her out on a date to Rosie's Diner and she says yes. Marcus had obviously believed the rumors he had heard about Hannah because he arrives thirty minutes late and then assaults her in a public place. Hannah starts to loathe herself and everyone around her more and more. Her encounter with Marcus was the first time she ever considered...suicide.
   She was so shocked by Marcus's actions she could barely speak. Soon after Marcus left, she was approached by Zach Dempsey, reason number seven. He tried to comfort her, offered to buy her another milkshake, but Hannah knew he was only trying to hit on her. Hannah couldn't even talk without bursting into tears. Zach was embarrassed and felt rejected. He was soon going to get his revenge. Hannah joined a Peer Communications class. This class was Hannah's "safe haven". No one was allowed to be mean to each other and everyone respected the teacher enough to not harass anyone in that class. There was even a wire rack in the room that had paper bags on them with everyone's name written on a bag. You could drop messages in anyone's bag giving notes of encouragement. Hannah was so sure that she wanted to end her life at this point so she needed anything that she could get, even a little note could make a big difference. Not knowing how much Hannah needed those notes, Zach stole any note she got and made sure she never received them. Hannah made a plan to catch Zach in the process of stealing and once she did, he just ran away. He didn't even give her an explanation which made Hannah feel useless.
     After she found out about Zach, she realized she didn't want to turn to anyone anymore. She was losing hope in herself and the people around her. She started writing poetry every time something went wrong and soon met Ryan Shaver, her eighth reason, in poetry class. She honestly thought Ryan was her friend, she shared her poems with him and expressed herself during this difficult time. Soon Ryan Shaver betrayed Hannah. He published one of her poems in the school newspaper, without her permission. He never gave her credit for the poem and everyone was talking about it in school,dissecting her poem. Now, Hannah's want for committing suicide grew stronger.

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